21 7 / 2014
When I hop onto a bus, occasionally, just for a bit, I wish I’d see you listening to your kind of music in a cozy corner. And perhaps, hi?
16 7 / 2014
How I wish I had gleaming bright paths laid out for me
That I had no need to forge ahead in the darkness and waste years realizing I had been going round in circles
02 7 / 2014
Reading past messages and writings and wondering how everything changes.
Just bit by bit, but now it is all strange, friends become acquaintances and aspirations fade.
And I’m intidimated by how so much has slipped by. And how much I have changed. For better or for worse, I really don’t know.
"I want to be like water, to slip by fingers but hold up a ship"
Who am I, really? And where do I head?
28 6 / 2014
My life is in stasis.
as if I’m suspended in mid-air, perpetually falling but never able to grapple with anything - reality, vague flashbacks, childhood dreams that no longer fuel me.
I breathe my seconds away, slaughter fictional enemies in the hours, hide in stories for days, but the black hole only expands further. Time has come to a standstill. Dread fills the event horizon, I view the present as stills irrelevant. I arched my neck skywards, but the vast blue swallows my world, me.
And the funny thing is, all I have to do is to trudge a step forward. But in which direction? To where? My compass has gone haywire and I can only hear my pulse beating to its finale.
28 4 / 2014
Never been so lost.
02 4 / 2014
You can never deny the possibility of truth just because you can’t prove it exists.
It’s like being absolutely sure that I don’t like anybody just because I don’t show it.
31 3 / 2014
Hate that whirlwind mind with its frenzy of thoughts and hurricanes of doubts
Leaving nothing in its core
With me in stasis
Sometimes, I do need a punch.
16 3 / 2014
Along the way, somehow I forget that I am dealing with lives.
Not that I may cause their deaths, but that if I really try, their lives will be a tad more interesting and fun. And bearable.
Sense of responsibility aye, where have you disappeared to?
16 3 / 2014
"I find it wholesome to be alone the greater part of the time. To be in company, even with the best, is soon wearisome and dissipating. I love to be alone. I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude. We are for the most part more lonely when we go abroad among men than when we stay in our chambers."
14 2 / 2014
when will I stop avoiding efforts
and when will i stop escaping to stories and legends
to pave my life
08 2 / 2014
Hohoho shit just go real.
Getting more than what I asked for. Too much for me to handle ._.